• I’m not ‘okay’.

    I am very tired and this has been building for many months. I’ve been struggling to cope with how things remain and the guilt that I carry because of those things. I put on a brave face but I remain torn up inside over everything. I was able to do that until I ended up…

  • Suicide – Related to tonight’s coronation street.

    I watched Coronation Street tonight. I have actually known a few cases of suicide in real life. That happens when you’re part of the system which is letting people down left, right and centre. I don’t really like talking about it because I’ve been at the point where I’d rather be gone than deal with…

  • Our system is miles off ‘fit for purpose’.

    I put myself on the council list because of my situation. I am going to find it hard to afford the rent long term where I am. Especially after losing PIP and also subsequently losing my LHA one bedroom housing benefit. If I hadn’t been under the age of 35 years, then I wouldn’t have…

  • I’ve worked so hard but I’m so tired!

    I’m starting to feel the effects of how hard I’ve worked to get back up after everything. I am exhausted mentally more than physically. I’ve worked so hard to have more control over my ocd and basically be less annoying. I had to do it all on my own because there was no support out…

  • Natural Sun Protection, Cats in the heat and how the cats help me socially.

    I went for a lovely long walk in this heat today. I must admit that I hated it the first time we had this a few weeks ago. However, I have now changed my mind. It does help that I haven’t got allergies this time around. The spots on my hands have thankfully cleared up…