I’m feeling worse than I have for a long time. This is probably the most difficult time of my life so far. It’s harder in the aftermath of a lot of things happening than it ever was at the time I was going through it. I’m just emotionally and physically tired. I’m not even consciously… Read More This is the hardest part of my life so far.
I’m at my Mothers today under duress as the Car had to go for the MOT today. I’ve got my dinner there this evening but I’m going to go home earlier than normal. I find her so irritating. She rings me constantly this morning to get me to the MOT appointment. I literally have to… Read More When you really don’t want to take any sh*t anymore.
Those that are not happy I cut them off are just going to have to deal with it. I just don’t want them around me right now. I do not care what others think or if that decision hurts them. Grow a pair and stay out of my life. The discrimination and general difficulties I’ve… Read More Deal with It! I had to and now I’m a monster.
I’m going to start off by saying that I am aware of ‘mates’ I’ve cut off contacting my family members asking questions about me. I don’t want them doing that because I keep my private life separate from other things and those I hang around with on the outside of it now. I cut a… Read More Stay out of my business/ had a day of forcing myself to do things (depression is so hard to fight).
I can barely sleep and I look awful. It’s making me ill staying awake every night and I can’t rely on medication because the GP doesn’t prescribe sleeping tablets for long term use anymore. I am sorry but I simply can’t move on because everything that has happened is bugging me. I constantly feel misjudged… Read More This is my reality. Others need to know how I’m affected.
Until I know the full details that I haven’t been told I don’t have a future. I’m stuck. I cannot concentrate on anything. I deserve to know the details that I can pick up are there but I cannot pick up specific details. I don’t care if spirit doesn’t want me to know. I want… Read More I have no future until I know the answers. And I can’t mask the severity of my illness any longer.
I woke up feeling extremely awful. Others that don’t even know me have noticed how tired I look. I posted a photo on twitter earlier saying that I agreed with a comment that a complete stranger made to me when I popped in the Supermarket for something. I can’t even see straight today. I keep… Read More One of my really awful days.
I am feeling very bored this evening. I don’t normally get bored at all. I just feel so fed up and lack interest in everything right now. I need to sleep soon which will definitely put an end to feeling bored. I can’t be bored if I’m asleep. I do feel sleepy enough to sleep… Read More Why am I feeling so bored?
The painkillers are finally out of my system. I’m starting to feel less wound up. I have had a detox bath to help the chemicals come out faster. And forget the last few posts I made on here. I actually do not care about the past when I’m not in an addiction state or even… Read More Addiction beaten for now….