I managed to get a parking space in car park where I live tonight. Then I discovered that I had leaked all over my car seat. I now have that to clean when I get up tomorrow morning. I have felt so crap over the last couple of days. I now have my skin kicking… Read More I could have had a better day.

I said screw it today and went out in a dress that I had to squeeze into (size 10). I had to squeeze my boobs into one of my tiny bras. I have hair everywhere. I might leak down my chunky thighs if my tablets don’t kick in quickly enough. I have tied the sides… Read More Confidence is an issue. So f it! I am just existing today!

I just had the most entertaining dream that I had in a very long time. If there isn’t a virtual reality game like this then there really should be. I was walking around dark drab looking corridors. There was other people milling around. The fashion, social ways that people were acting and settings was probably… Read More I just had a brilliant dream. If this isn’t already a game it should be!

I obviously don’t feel completely ok because monthly is probably on the worse couple of days. I have pains and am quite bloated. Migraine has finally gone. I was in bed at 11pm last night. I got woken up at quarter to 5 this morning by my cat tapping my face telling me the food… Read More Slightly better after resting yesterday.

I know that this is unusual for me. I am not feeling well. I currently have a major migraine which is also making me feel sick. I managed to eat something but it was difficult. The feeling of hunger when also feeling sick is irritating. On one hand you want to eat but then it… Read More In bed already by 9pm.

I try to keep the fact that I briefly ended up in prison during 2018 quite low key. However, on this occasion, I will tell you how I lost over a stone and and a half in that environment after only a month in there. There is no way to mimic the weight loss results… Read More The prison ’diet’

I was sat in my flat until about 3pm today because I woke up not wanting to do anything. I eventually went out to get the flea treatment for the cats, get the car washed (damn birds decided to take a huge crap down the side of my car), got the break light on my… Read More Busy day… even though I didn’t even want to leave the house.

I have noticed that since the Amber Heard and Johnny Depp case has been aired the attitudes surrounding mental illness has got ten times worse. I have noticed a building stigma since the details of this case went public. It has started a conversation but it is counterproductive. People used to be prejudice at a… Read More The attitudes out there are extremely bad. Amber Heard vs. Johnny Depp case isn’t helping.

The dosage of antidepressants seem to be helping now that I have been on them a few days. I feel more sociable now. I am quite bloated due to time of month which is making me a bit fed up. The gym is paying off as far as strength though. I went to mum’s to… Read More The gym sessions have paid off and starting to feel better.

I am in bed already. I know it is only half 7 at night. That certainly doesn’t mean that I am going to sleep yet. I feel tired and ache from my gym session yesterday. I went for a walk before the rain started this evening. I had a bath when I got back because… Read More Maybe I am affected more than I am willing to admit.