I feel trapped in the same situation / place right now. It’s making me unsettled and now I’m unable to sleep again. I don’t think my bed is helping as it’s broken which makes it increasingly uncomfortable. It has always been hard anyway but now it’s broken the hardness is causing me pain. I wake… Read More I need to get away!

I fell asleep straight away with no issues… I then had to get up for the toilet which has woken me up. I woke up hungry too. I’m not eating anything yet because it’s too early after waking up at 5am. I don’t want to lay here doing nothing so here I am. I keep… Read More Now I’m awake again… questioning my current decisions regarding my future.

I have always had sleep issues due to my autism. I just can’t sleep at all properly at the moment. I constantly keep waking up. I got woken up by the cat after only falling asleep an hour ago. I need to stop drinking alcohol every night. That habit makes sleeping harder. I’m getting fluid… Read More Sleeping is difficult at the moment.

I have days when I regret taking the path that I chose growing up. The moral compass against things that weren’t right didn’t benefit me long term. I could have had a much better life if I’d have chosen to turn a blind eye to things that shouldn’t have been happening to people. I’m not… Read More Life could have gone down a much more pleasant path if I hadn’t made the choice to stay moral.

Today was basically a waste of time because I literally couldn’t wake up. I know that sounds really weird but it doesn’t freak me out any longer. This has happened to me most of my life and normally feels peaceful not frightening. I slept through my alarm and numerous phone calls from my mother. I… Read More Life never stops being bizarre with a brain like mine!

I couldn’t sleep properly last night and I couldn’t wake up today. The next part of the painting didn’t get done because I couldn’t get out of bed today until mid afternoon. I had a doctors phone appointment this afternoon. I missed that too. I’m trying to be reasonable but after years of suffering with… Read More Frustration and tiredness, accompanied by insomnia, won today.

I had absolutely no motivation to even wake up until about 2pm. I thought that I wouldn’t get anything done as I hadn’t slept much last night. I eventually pulled my lazy bum out of bed. I went to get my weekly food shop. I came home thinking I was going to be completely lazy… Read More Busy Bank Holiday Monday eventually…

I didn’t sleep well last night. I probably shouldn’t have straightened my hair about 2am in the morning but I made that choice. Then I couldn’t sleep until at least 4am. I was then woken by my cat at half 5. I haven’t been able to get back to sleep since. I feel like I’ve… Read More Cold and tired 😦

I have tried to do as little as possible today because I’m tired. I made myself go for a walk earlier because I needed fresh air after being inside most of the last few weeks. I was starting to look more pale than normal. I don’t think I’ll ever have a normal life. I simply… Read More This is my life… bizarre is an understatement.

I have finished some parts with help from my Mother. I’m not sure about the hallway cream because they seem quite patchy. It isn’t easy to paint cream colours but as it’s rented accommodation I’m trying to stick with neutral colour schemes. The other one is a lavender colour. I have sore dry hands from… Read More The painting progress so far…