I ended up drinking 8 little bottles last night. I was doing my university work and just got into a pattern of drinking while I was writing notes and typing up my work. I feel like crap this morning as I haven’t slept, due to sleep pattern being a mess, and feel sick. Why do… Read More I feel like shit, haven’t slept and regret drinking last night.

I managed to quit alcohol for two days. I’m treating myself tonight because it’s the weekend and it’s never a good idea to cold turkey from any substance if you’re so used to drinking it. I’m trying to learn control and moderation and this is the way is better to do it. I have them… Read More Managed two days but small treat at the weekend.

It has been one of those no sleep at all nights. I’m feeling too hot which hasn’t been helped by my cat coming to sit next to me. She has jumped off me to go to her food dish now. I didn’t drink alcohol last night for the first time in ages. I feel better… Read More I can’t sleep again… and now it’s basically morning.

I was meaning to get up much earlier today but it didn’t happen. But I did get on with half the things I should have been doing today. I’m on a walk again because I’m trying to do the whole weight loss thing as well as ditching the alcohol. I felt better for just drinking… Read More I’m up stupidly late. I got most things done though!

I had my last two little bottles that I had left last night. I slept quite well just drinking less but woke up at a stupid hour. I’m not buying another box. I did the same to quit painkillers (that wasn’t a good thing when I hurt my ankle because I had none in my… Read More Quitting alcohol from today!

I know I’m not the first to turn to alcohol when they’ve suffered heart break and rejection. I definitely won’t be the last either. I was rejected quite early in my life so it left me more sensitive. I don’t know naturally instinctively that certain behaviours are becoming excessive. I was deep into my pain… Read More I hate to blame others for my addiction but certain things are interlinked.

I got up really late despite not feeling up to it. I’m on a walk because I’m fat and need to lose weight again. I’m going to have to cut out the alcohol to actually lose weight and I seriously don’t want to do that. I have a brain that constantly argues with itself. The… Read More Reluctantly up and on a walk.

I am tired because I couldn’t sleep all night (day sleeping is not a great idea). I have never felt this way before in my life. Is there a point you just think screw it? Living is harder than it has ever previously felt… ever. I feel like there is no point anymore. I have… Read More Life gets harder to do.

I’ve tried recolouring my hair to remove the green pigment I still have from ages ago. It has faded it but hasn’t removed all of it. It now looks more like an intentional Balayage dye job more than the end growing out. I’ve concluded that this colour just needs to be faded out over time.… Read More The colour is stuck in my hair.

I don’t feel so adversely affected by side effects this time. It’s now early afternoon and have only just woken up because I needed sleep. I can hear the weather outside; rain and wind most of the day but it finally seems to be sunny. I heard the wheely-bins blowing about last night. The drainpipe… Read More The morning after the vaccination…