I haven’t slept all night again! It is now half six in the morning and I’m still restless. I can’t rest until I know what is going on with me. I just want to know if I caught something or if I’m pregnant, even though it isn’t likely because of the negative tests unless it’s… Read More Can’t sleep again, very stressed.

I write this entry after watching the Dispatches programme about the darker sides of the online retailer Amazon. Amazon’s speaker system, Echo with Alexa, is something which they’re always encouraging customers to install in their homes, seemingly to spy on them. I probably wouldn’t get one even if it was a lower price. The promise… Read More The internet vs. privacy /small signs that my dad is still ‘around’.

I got over a cold that I just couldn’t shake off. I still don’t feel right though. I have a doctors appointment during this week so at least I will know why I feel this way. I feel full and keep getting cramps similar to monthly ones but they don’t feel like those ones. I… Read More I need space right now. I’m still not right.

I have barely wanted to do much recently. I know that I’m in a better place in life than this time last year but I still get down sometimes. I got up late again today but I made myself go out for a walk. I needed to get out for a while so I didn’t… Read More Crawling back out of depression.

I’m technically free in comparison to the last couple of years. I don’t feel that I will ever be truly free though. I wish that others would do the right thing regarding what happened at the university. I don’t just mean in my own case but about everything that was done along the lines of… Read More I wish that others would do the right thing and my take on campaigning for changes with an election on the horizon.

I left my flat in a state because I got up late for an appointment. I have popped into the library for a while. I’m feeling sick again. I haven’t been sick but I do still feel like complete crap. I haven’t even bothered to have my eyebrows done properly since that night happened, might… Read More Still behind,never going to catch up!

I’m worried that I may be imagining things after all pregnancy tests, even the latest one, being negative. I keep getting pregnancy symptoms. I even told myself I weren’t pregnant due to tests being negative. I keep feeling sick but not been sick for a few weeks. Today I developed a new symptom. I walked… Read More A feelings vs tests.

The cats are on edge after the last few days of fireworks and something that has happened outside my flat tonight. I don’t know what is exactly going out outside but the police were just leaving our carpark when I came back from the supermarket earlier. I walked in my flat to find that one… Read More Same shit, different day here.

I didn’t think that I would get anything done today. I got up, had breakfast, took antidepressant medication. I accidentally fell back to sleep until the afternoon because I felt exhausted (this is nothing new and I kept waking up last night). I still felt absolutely exhausted when I woke up and finally got dressed.… Read More There are days I’m even surprised that I get anything done.

I have decided that I’m not going out tomorrow. This is mainly due to knowing that I must spend less time walking, but instead more time studying on my OU – Open University – module and I need to clean up a bit. I am so glad to get home after having to be at… Read More I’m so glad to be home today.