I do feel bad for being lazy but I did do a few bits to tidy up. I hadn’t been able to do much around here due to my ankle injury. I had to keep sitting down after it started hurting. It has been stiff but a lot better today. I’m hoping that I can… Read More I had a lazy day. I needed to do as little as possible.
I m already in bed despite getting up later. I just don’t like even being awake today. I’m hoping that I wake up in a better mood tomorrow. I’m trying not to feel bad about being depressed. It’s hard though. I know it isn’t a choice but I feel responsible for not being able to… Read More I’m going to bed early. I just can’t do anymore today!
I woke up so depressed. It comes out of no where. I have no energy and have just wanted to sleep most of today. I found out that my TMA for degree module has to be in on Thursday. I have managed to get an extension for a week. I just don’t want to do… Read More Depression is quite bad today 😦
I have lost a bit of weight since I started walking regularly. I have cut down on alcohol and fizzy drinks too. I feel worse for trying to get healthy. I hope it gets better as I get used to the new lifestyle. I don’t even feel hungry much. I think my stomach has shrunk.… Read More Weight loss has random side effects
I woke up late but was browsing my phone for hours. TikTok is a time wasting creation. I checked my blog mails too in case there was anything important within the masses of unread emails. I can’t wait for my eyebrows to be done. They look awful in certain lights! I have a runny nose… Read More Bank holiday Monday … I slept most of it!
I’m not saying this because I feel depressed. I feel too tired to be depressed. I know that in reality things will never be okay between me and someone I will always want to be friends with. I know that we will never be friends. However, it doesn’t stop me wishing that everything was different.… Read More I wish that things were different.
I did some of the cleaning and had to get out for a bit. I didn’t leave it all. It looks a little better. I’m not wasting the nice weather. I know that I’m naturally pale unable to tan but I can at least make an effort. I’m not walking as far as yesterday (I… Read More It’s a nice day and I am avoiding again.
I managed to get to the pharmacy to pick up my medication hours before it closed. I had to sleep from 5 pm to 9.30 on and off so that I wasn’t too tired to get out of bed at a decent hour this morning. It sounds ridiculous but it’s my reality. I feel more… Read More I can do ‘normal’ if I do a lot of prep beforehand /an interesting thing that came up in conversation recently.
I found out that potentially the pharmacy isn’t open today due to it being good Friday. They definitely won’t be open on Monday because it’s bank holiday. I have one antidepressant left which I could possibly miss out tomorrow, take the last one on Sunday. This means it’s still in my system by Tuesday when… Read More Today has already been a nightmare.
I couldn’t sleep last night so I got up to go for a walk so that I’m awake for the rest of the day. I didn’t even take a coat due to thinking it wools be warm like yesterday. I misjudged it. I definitely needed a coat on but I can’t be bothered to go… Read More I went for a walk to wake up… it’s colder than I thought out here!