The heat isn’t helping any of us. I have a headache from just being out there for a few hours in the evening and yesterday I only walked from my car to the supermarket and back into my home. I had to stop Dave (wandering cat) being ran out earlier. Someone driving a white Land… Read More I’m having a bad time at the moment.

I have stopped for something to eat without air conditioning. I still feel like I’m being cooked in an oven. I’m not walking today because I felt like crap all day. You wouldn’t think I’d been doing any exercise with the shape of my thighs and middle at the moment. I am ballooning despite having… Read More I still feel like I’m sat in a cooker. And the flab days continue.

I am constantly being told that I just haven’t met the right person yet. I really don’t think that is the case. I believe that some of us don’t have soulmates, twin flames etc. I feel like I’m meant to walk alone. That is my terms and conditions of existence in this lifetime. I just… Read More Some of us don’t believe in true love.

I didn’t buy alcohol on my walk today. I’m still out because it’s nice cool air at this time of the evening. The place is a mess due to the cat peeing on things and I had to wash it all. I swear that my dreams pick up what is going to come up after… Read More Fed up, it’s hot and everything is a mess! And there is an autism initiative consultation coming up locally in the city and county.

I had a good sleep earlier. I woke up feeling slightly better. I was woken up by mister peeing on my bed this morning. Apparently I wasn’t quick enough to put food in his bowl. He has been behaved since but I had to wash both my duvet cover and the actual duvet because he… Read More Sleep helps.

I feel such a mess. I drank alcohol again despite telling myself I wouldn’t buy it. I feel so down. It’s not so hot tonight but not asleep yet because I slept during the day. I’m so fed up of allergies…. I have a bunged up nose and sore eyes. I also accidentally hit the… Read More I’m a mess.

I have caught up with this programme an hour later because quite frankly I forgot that it was on. The programme contents are not surprising to me. The tactics they’ve shown in this programme are those I experienced when my son was being taken from me. The family courts are intimidating anyone that ends up… Read More My thoughts on Torn Apart: Family Courts uncovered.

I spoke to a few researchers over the last few years who are actually bothering to do research in areas where it previously hasn’t been done. The latest one I contributed to was in the middle of the night last night (with the help of alcohol). This was about the system being stacked against autistic… Read More There are changes happening but not enough.

I’m hot, tired and fed up of every day life crap. Unless it’s important I’m going to disappear for a few weeks. I need time to chill out and reset myself. I tried to quit drinking but went back to it without being aware of the habit becoming a nightly thing again. I was doing… Read More I need a break. Addiction is starting to creep back into my days.

The fact that I’m mentally and physically exhausted means that this solution would work for me. If I ended my life it would help both me and the landlord to be able to sell the flat. I wouldn’t have to find somewhere to live and could finally rest rather than continue to struggle in life.… Read More I have a solution that would suit everyone!