I woke up to the news of the UK reviewing its human rights act this morning. In this review, they are apparently going to waiver the rights of disabled people. They can literally do it legally and we won’t be able to even say it is disability discrimination. It is basically going to legalise what… Read More Disabled people’s rights in the uk might be gone soon.

I tried so hard to not have to take my antidepressants until Thursday but I got to the point where I couldn’t function. I got overwhelmed by everything. I was so tired that I had to go for a nap. I need to rest today but hate myself for doing so because I feel fat.

I got up for the doctors appointment but was 20 minutes late they wouldn’t see me so had to rearrange the appointment to Friday at other surgery. It decides to start raining on me and has gone really cold outside. If they had picked up the phone before I left home then I could have… Read More Well, I get to feel like a failure for the rest of the day.

I have woken up at a stupid hour so may as well post todays blog entry now. I have a face to face doctors appointment tomorrow morning (first one in over 2 years) to look at my little toe swelling to see if they will send me for an x ray. I kind of feel… Read More I just think life is weird a lot.

I have changed as a person so much recently. I used to be the type who gave a shit. I now really do not care about anything. I totally no longer believe in all the spiritual stuff. The after life doesn’t exist otherwise my dad would have prevented so much stuff happening to me at… Read More I just do not care anymore and question previous beliefs.

I have felt better since I started saying no to people. However, I still feel slightly mean and it is worse when people have tried to guilt trip with their actions. There became a pattern of my niece only messaging me when she wanted money. I told her straight last time she started a conversation… Read More Learning not to be a pushover sometimes feels mean.

I didn’t sleep until late so didn’t wake up until early afternoon. I attempted to fix my hair but probably didn’t blend enough of it due to only having one bottle of bleach to fix it (my hair is so thick that it takes 2 to 3 depending on whether I am touching up roots… Read More Late start but busy day.

I am quite sure that I am probably not the only one unable to sleep due to warm close humid weather. Even the cats are not sure whether they want to be outside or on my bed tonight. I am also bugged by my hair colour. It can’t stay like this… it needs blending through… Read More The weather is making it impossible to sleep tonight.

I still am hurt at how people treat me of have treated me. That is how I feel under the new take no shit kind of persona. I wish things were different in many ideal worlds within all kinds of situations which have happened in my life. I never get to change anything which really… Read More It does upset me.

You can see people pop up in dreams who, according to others, really didn’t like you … thought you were weird etc. Someone I knew who was a lecturer when I went back to do my GCSE’s randomly started appearing in dreams every so often in 2020. I have no idea why. I hadn’t even… Read More Dreams have no link to waking life sometimes.