I had my feet sorted today so that is one thing sorted. I have managed to make my hair a lot better. I will just glide the straightener over it tonight ready for tomorrow’s meeting. I presume that is still happening because I haven’t heard anything since the social worker said she was off to… Read More Things seem to be going the ‘right way’.

I barely got anything done today because I was focusing on trying to tone the ginger and yellow out of m hair using specific toning shampoo, conditioner and deep conditioning mask. I may have used a little much. Maybe I didn’t have to use all three products together and only put a thin layer on.… Read More Well, today was a waste of time.

Diary of a painfully shy introvert is exactly what I grew up being and still am. I just learned that I had to be more talkative to get things sorted. I can’t stay quiet because nothing will ever change. People ignore written communication but they cannot ignore someone who is speaking the truth about what… Read More I am exactly what it says on the title of the blog.

I’m not portraying my life in a negative way. This is purely the reality of my life having a form of autism. I have tried to change my life but it’s never progressed in any way. The comments about how I see everything as negative is wrong. I am merely discussing the reality of being… Read More I don’t think people realise how my reality is not a choice and I’m not portraying it in a negative light.

The reality of my life isn’t as good as I make out most of the time. The reality of being unable to work due to disability is going to get worse due to everything that is happening in government etc. I’m extremely uncomfortable when it comes to life in general. I didn’t use to look… Read More Things aren’t as ok as I make out. It’s like a complete mess…

I have just realised it is 1st of October… 23 days until I turn 35 years old. I’m not even used to being over 30 yet. The whole thirties thing doesn’t feel real. I still feel like a child. In my head I’m still a child due to the trauma I’ve been through in my… Read More The countdown to 35…

I finally got the cat into the vet after several times of trying to ring them for many hours. I had to drop everything at home and get him there within half an hour when they did say he should see someone. The mess at my home is beyond a huge task now. The vet… Read More Some days are just too much.

I have been kind of busier than planned today. I had to go replace my bedding because mister peed on it. I have to take mister to the vets if they will accept him on an emergency basis (PDSA hospital in our locality is currently in that status). I’m told that they class potential UTI’s… Read More Schedule kind of gone off today / views on panorama program Wednesday night.

I got extremely pissed off with my cat and subsequently ended up chasing him a round the flat and threw him out of the window (ground floor so not a huge drop). This is due to the fact he peed on my bed. I had to go out to get a new duvet because it’s… Read More I may have lost my best friend.

This is a really random post and I’m going to have to be quite quick typing tonight’s entry because I can’t sleep much tomorrow because I need to sort out my cats vet visit. I have been through so many things that has invalidated me which has resulted in me not feeling like a proper… Read More I’ve never felt like a proper person.