I went for a nap earlier because I felt tired. That was half 2 this afternoon. I woke up at 6 and then fell asleep again until 10. I only went for a nap to have the energy to do tasks like vacuuming. It’s now too late to do anything like that due to having… Read More Today has been an epic fail.
I didn’t sleep the whole night. I had to get out because I’ve not been out for days. I needed some fresh air despite the fact that I can’t even see straight due to tired eyes. I have to walk as fast as possible because Asda has just sent me a text saying my delivery… Read More I had to get out but I feel like crap!
I didn’t get to my mothers today and now it seems like she’s fallen out with me. Depression isn’t a choice! Under normal circumstances I’d be at hers every weekend but right now I just can’t do it. It’s taken me all day to do things that need doing around here. I’m trying my best… Read More Depression is not a choice!
I only slept for a few hours today before waking up: I’m tired but went for a walk anyway. I didn’t go for one for the last week. I’ve started getting dry skin from constantly being in central heated environment. I can’t complain after I slept most of the day yesterday. I kept getting overheated… Read More Can’t even sleep during the day now.
I can’t live with the pain of things that have happened in my life any longer. I am too chicken to take my own life but I can feel my inner pain slowly killing me. I can no longer feel emotion. That is weird because I’m also in tears typing this entry. The memories of… Read More My story ends soon, very tired.
I was watching a program about murderers earlier. There wasn’t much else on… I’m not that morbid. I have noticed a worrying theme to these types of programmes. The murderers are always the odd balls, the helpful friendly types, the ones that have natural charm. That makes me feel potentially in danger of being accused… Read More Different doesn’t mean someone is potentially a killer or a danger.
I think I only slept for barely half an hour before waking up again. I’m too anxious to sleep. I really don’t want to go for the vaccination today. I have no choice now that myself and mum have appointments. I know that I booked it. I felt brave a week ago because it wasn’t… Read More I didn’t sleep most of the night.
I’m not able to concentrate until after I’ve had the vaccine on Friday. I’m far too anxious to even concentrate on anything. I just want to flit from one thing to another so that my mind isn’t still enough to remain worried. I only have one day left to distract myself. I can’t not be… Read More I can’t function until after vaccine.
I may act like I’m completely chilled regarding having the vaccine this week but I fear the side effects too. I have allergies that I experienced with various medications as a child. I have had dodgy skin that gets scabby every time I use a chemical that it reacts to and I bloat up easily… Read More I act brave but I’m actually not regarding vaccine etc. / life advice included.
I know this sounds odd. I’ve never experienced this kind of thing previously. I just no longer feel like a person. I look at myself in the mirror and just don’t see me as a person. I just see an empty shell. I’m no longer present in life. I’ve never experienced this kind of thing,… Read More I no longer feel like a person.