I am just tired of every day life. Surviving the prison of mental illness is sometimes too much. I wish that I would just fall asleep forever. I’m not even suicidal. I just can’t do existing any longer. It isn’t due to lockdown… it’s me. I’m constantly haunted by my past. I just can’t get… Read More Life feels like a chore I don’t want to do anymore.
I got up late after falling back to sleep after my breakfast and medication. I managed to get the washing machine working. I took everything out and put it on a rinse cycle. Then the spinner part started working so the rinse must have washed out whatever was stuck in there. It might have been… Read More I’ve had a quiet day and it made me happy.
I just can’t settle tonight. I was watching TikTok for a while. I nearly dropped off and ended up with my phone nearly on my face. I then woke up again because I needed the toilet (never drink a whole glass of water before going to bed). I got up to get another glass of… Read More I just can’t sleep. And stuff just happens at the worse possible times.
I am aware that it’s university mental health day. Do you really want my honest opinion? Well, here it goes. I would rather study at the open university because brick universities are far too political. They control the narrative … anyone who doesn’t fit that model gets given a hard time. That goes for the… Read More University mental health day.
I went to bed quite early but then couldn’t sleep. I’m just anxious. I have someone coming to set up the network for my printer tomorrow. It’s not like the person is even a stranger. I’ve used his services several times and he understands autism due to his son being on the spectrum. He works… Read More Early night didn’t happen. Anxiety can be quite disruptive.
I have managed to do a lot of stuff so I’m having my me time which is a long walk. I am giving you all a few minutes of my time. I was harsh yesterday because of being tired. I’m not so stressed now that half my artwork is done and the flat is less… Read More I have a spare five minutes.
I know it was on last night but I haven’t got on to the blog about this topic until tonight. I’m sure many of you saw the storyline regarding the disabled woman (played by Rosie Jones the comedian who has cerebral palsy). I could have expressed the exact same view of the services. There is… Read More This weeks casualty episode was true to life for disabled people.
I didn’t know that this was an actual thing but that is the only way I can describe how I’m feeling right now. Maybe it’s just the type of day I’ve had. I came home to my own flat looking like a mess. It makes me tired just looking at it, let alone attempting to… Read More Mentally exhausted…
I have had one of those days. I’m currently waiting outside in the cold for our chips. I went to mums to wash the car. I have wet cold feet from that task and now having to wait in the cold weather. I’m going to be glad to get home tonight. I’m helping my mum… Read More Well today has been one of those days…
I did a few bits today but didn’t sleep a lot last night after my stupidly long nap. It feels grubby in here. I went straight in the bath after I had been for a walk. I still haven’t put the printer together. It isn’t that complicated but my brain is tired so it’s telling… Read More I tried my best today.