I have just done the first part of my TMA for open university module. I still have a bit to do but now I no longer have writers block. I found it impossible to start for weeks. I have a lot of housework to do … it’s starting to get irritating just looking at the… Read More Busy week. I won’t be here much.
I tried to reset my sleep pattern yesterday. I attempted to stay awake most of the day and didn’t go to bed unt late on. I still laid awake all night without being able to sleep. I have monthly pains so it’s hard to settle anyway. The dull ache may not be that painful but… Read More I was tired but I didn’t sleep again. I can’t even reset my pattern.
I just feel too exhausted to so anything today. I can barely type this blog entry. I know that I can’t help it but I still feel guilty about not getting things done. I shouldn’t feel guilty. I fought it for years to get all my qualifications etc. I deserve a rest. I also feel… Read More I have guilt when I’m genuinely exhausted… even though I know I can’t help it.
I have been depressed for the last few days. I may have not helped that by accidentally forgetting my antidepressants twice in the last week. I just feel totally done right now. I cannot be bothered with life and literally get barely anything done. I’m always tired due to being unable to sleep at night.… Read More Depression time 😦
I’m watching the documentary now. I felt her death on a personal level when it happened last year. I stand by what I say about what I think led to her death. I firmly point the finger at the police, courts and the stigma that mental health carries in our society. I have seen the… Read More Caroline Flack documentary
I have ache on my back from time to time which never really becomes an issue. Only tonight it seems to be quite sore and scabby (it isn’t pleasant). It’s started going down the top of my arms. I had to take a painkiller it got that sore. I put my mind off of it… Read More Skin flare up keeping me awake. Then I start skin picking … stupid solution but temporarily helped.
I had to be up earlier rather than in the afternoon today. I did everything that needed doing and now bathed, changed into pjs and totally ready for a nap in bed. I know that it’s sunny but it kept raining earlier so leaving my walk until tomorrow. It’s a nice evening now that I’m… Read More I tried my best… now I need a nap.
I can’t complain that I’m still awake as I spent most of the day time in bed. I was making the most of being able to sleep. I have to get a bit of sleep rather than none so that I can function enough to study etc. The wind is loud again tonight and causing… Read More Awake at stupid o click again.
I lay awake the entire night again! It’s driving me insane. I was even tired last night… still didn’t sleep. I had to get up to put the heating on because it’s got cold overnight. Others say that it’s more common to fall asleep when the air is cool. I am the complete opposite. I… Read More Another night of insomnia.
Family are just as awful as the outside world. I fell asleep again due to mental exhaustion. Then my mother doesn’t talk to me again when I ring her due to inconveniencing her. I told her earlier that so was struggling. People act like we do it on purpose. I don’t want to feel like… Read More I’m fed up! Mental illness isn’t understood enough!!!