People say that all I have to do is put myself out there to be successful. I used to but was put through stuff that left me with permanent mental trauma. That mental trauma is manifesting into physical issues such as constant injuries and monthly issues. I can barely walk today without my leg being… Read More It’s not that easy.
I sometimes get really upset and down about how my life is just stagnant and I have seen others in the same college / university (they graduated years after I had to leave) courses as myself move on to such better lives. Mine is just the same shit, different day repetitive crap that never ends.… Read More I do feel like I have ‘failed’.
I am pretty sure that I have filled up with water and today is going to be one of my monthlies worse days. I feel worse than normal anyway because my leg muscle keeps kicking off. I managed a short walk yesterday which seemed to not do too much harm. However, now it’s swollen up… Read More Uncomfortable again 😦
We need to get the rich people in this country to find their humanity again (or for the first time if they were born into a super rich privileged background). The plan for if I won the lottery they can do now. The bosses of the energy companies putting their prices up to stupid amounts… Read More This country is full of greedy rich people. This is what needs to happen but they won’t listen.
08/08 is known as the lion’s gate portal in the spiritual circles. I have never tried to specifically manifest on this particular date. I may as well try it this year. The world is a mess and as someone who can feel energy… there are definitely big unexpected things coming. I don’t know exact details… Read More The lion’s gate portal manifestation…
I struggle to do many things being autistic. I was barely able to get out of bed today. I was aching from my walk yesterday so it isn’t like I can go for a walk to get out now that plans have changed. The deal is normally if I answer the phone and say I’m… Read More I am on my own when it comes to my autism.
I have had a few instances today when I really do feel autistic and out of touch socially. I hold my hands up to making a rather flippant comment on a video when someone was showing the camera around a homeless shelter. I honestly didn’t mean it the way it read to them. I said… Read More How do people not feel awkward and self conscious when doing social stuff?
This may not work in every case but it has worked in some cases. I got the idea about this entry after talking to my son’s dad after ten years earlier today. This was the plan that I knew worked at that time but he went ghost and my son was given to strangers to… Read More Controversial topic… this is less about how to ‘trick’ the system but how to survive and keep what is yours.
I have had a really restless night. I feel battered from laying on the exercise a lot the past few days. The muscles in my legs feel swollen etc. I technically haven’t rested because my attempt to go to sleep wasn’t successful. I took a painkiller for my migraine but it is still there. It… Read More Restless night 😦 Migraine won’t go and trying to tackle pain.
It is that time of the month again so I am bloated as hell and have a headache. It swells all my muscles on top of exercise so I didn’t do too much at the gym session this week. I also have my injured finger so today has literally been a leg exercise session only.… Read More I am so uncomfortable.