I woke up at 4am. I never got back to sleep so I was up by 6am. I went for a walk to check if the wandering cat was a place where apparently someone was feeding random cats. I didn’t find him and also checked the bushes in case he did pass away somewhere. There… Read More Another early morning.

I woke up at a stupid hour feeling down. It’s amplifying how I constantly have kept feeling for a long time. I don’t feel that I deserve anything I have in my life. That I’m not a good enough person to have a reasonably comfortable life nowadays. I was an awful person in my past… Read More I feel like I don’t deserve anything.

I got up at 6am this morning after being unable to sleep all night. I’ve finally been able to pick up my parcel. I have got food in for the week on the way round. I’m not up to going back out there today. I forgot that I’d bump into the school traffic at half… Read More I saw sunrise this morning… as I was actually up!

I have never felt this wiped out. Exhaustion is one thing but I don’t even have the energy to get out of bed. I don’t even want to talk. Typing is making me feel sleepy. I’ve barely been able to stay awake the whole day. I have aches in my bones. It feels annoying to… Read More Wiped out type of exhaustion 

I slept longer during the night. I was asleep by half two and woke up at half 5. I normally only sleep an hour so I’m making progress. I started typing up the answer to question 1 on my open uni assignment before going to bed. That was keeping me awake because I was afraid… Read More Better night’s sleep… insomnia is losing its grip on me.

I slept longer last night. That was after sleeping the majority of the day yesterday. I’ve done that twice over the past week. I keep feeling wiped out due to insomnia only letting me sleep limited hours per night. I didn’t see day light yesterday. The wandering cat doesn’t seem to have returned either. I’m… Read More I’m half way there. Sleep is still quite a dodgy balancing act.

I can sleep better after adjusting how long I slept during the day after not sleeping at night. I got up about lunch time. That is better than 3, 4, 5 pm. I went for a long walk this afternoon. I hadn’t seen daylight in a few days. Luckily it didn’t rain, it even was… Read More Slowly sorting myself out.

I slept the majority of the day. I don’t even feel lazy because I desperately needed a rest. I’m mentally exhausted. That is somewhat more stressful than being physically tired. I’m feeling moody due to hormones (always am leading up to that time). The cats have decided to disappear outside tonight. It’s just me and… Read More I needed the rest.

I’m feeling quite sore as I have a cold and also itchy. I’ve got an awful habit of picking my skin which doesn’t help matters. I’m still not sleeping well. Probably also drinking alcohol too often as I have a drink on a nightly basis. I tried to cut down but there’s too much stress… Read More I’m clinging onto being able to function… don’t know how….

I have noticed myself wanting to drink alcohol more while studying my degree. It seems to be how I cope with the complexities of studying undergraduate law. I never used to be a fan of alcohol before becoming a student. It’s like drinking is my much needed chill time after my brain has got tired… Read More Why as students do we need to drink? Studying is surprisingly stressful!