I feel really rough. I have a headache because I had some alcohol tonight. I also started my monthly so I feel like crap physically anyway. I have my hair appointment tomorrow to lighten my hair. The aches I had in my body have come back. I am fed up of being used and discarded… Read More I miss who I thought was my best friend.

I didn’t get up until the evening. I was awake for a bit during the day but I didn’t do a lot. Dave (Thor), the cat that hangs around our area, was meowing outside my flat earlier. I just can’t even be around for animals today. Mine got fed and was able to cuddle with… Read More When you just want to drive away from your life for a few hours.

I randomly woke up at 3am. I haven’t been able to get back to sleep. I got woken up by my cat deciding that he wanted to go out and noisy owls outside. They must have been hooting loudly if I could hear them from inside. I feel like I am also getting a cold.… Read More Woke up at 3 am and now stuck awake.

I was tidied by mother today. It has felt like quite a long day despite only spending 3 hours sorting things. Anyway, my surroundings don’t look so grubby now. Two bags of rubbish got chucked out. I am in the bath chilling for a while. I can think better now that things are less cluttered.… Read More Chilling out after a stressful day.

That massage yesterday took away all the aches in my body that I couldn’t get rid of for months. I had lower back ache for the last few years. It has finally gone! I had aches in my fingers and neck recently. That has gone too. I slept better than I have in ages due… Read More I feel much better.

I am sure that many people have an opinion about what I did in an attempt to help. Many people I know have an opinion. Most say that they would never speak to me again if they were the other person involved. This is exactly why society is such a mess. We are all so… Read More This is exactly what is wrong with our society.

I think that I only had about 3 hours sleep in total last night. I had my massage this morning. I then went to the gym (despite being told not to do much after my appointment). I stick to my plans and do whatever I can do. I have a lot of housework to do… Read More I knew today was going to feel long.

I know that it seems ridiculous that I am so on edge and can’t sleep due to what happened. I have apologised. I can’t beg any more than I already have done. I have a mind like a child. I am basically extremely simple. How is it fair to hate me for making an honest… Read More I can’t settle again.

Apologies, I am extremely tired so probably won’t make much sense trying to explain something that seems ridiculous to others. I wished hard not to see repeated numbers for valid reasons. I am truly afraid of them. I saw repeated numbers in all the parts of my life which caused me trauma. They first started… Read More I fear repeated numbers for a valid reason.

I have seen 2222 for the last week or more when I have randomly looked at my mobiles screen. I know what this means. This always happens when I lose someone for good. That is why I don’t want to see the repeated numbers. They never mean anything good. I don’t care if the other… Read More Double numbers and everything seems weird at the moment.