I don’t normally post this many times a day but I keep forgetting to mention this due to having a lot on my mind right now. Someone posted a simulation of being inside the head of someone with schizophrenia. I have a diagnosis of a form of autism and suspected borderline personality disorder. I have… Read More Worrying things that I can relate to.
I was so sure that I liked someone in that way but I don’t think that I do. I am extremely tired after today. I never went back to the gym today after all the things that I have had to do due to sorting stuff out. I did all the weight machines so I… Read More I just don’t think I can now. I think my feelings were not what I thought.
I have been out all day and have stopped by the gym while waiting to give someone a lift when their flat tire is ready to be repaired. I had to drop them home. I went to get a few bits from the supermarket that I needed. I am either going home in between or… Read More I haven’t stopped today!
I finally managed to watch the Paddy and Christine McGuinness autism documentary. I didn’t get around to watching it until tonight. It wasn’t as awful as I assumed it might be. Simon Baron-Cohen is not a popular name within the adult autistic community. I met him when I was sectioned in a psychiatric hospital when… Read More I managed to catch up with the Paddy and Christine McGuinness autism documentary
I was awake most of the night so that may be why I was basically like screw it I am tired today. The only time that my insomnia disappeared was when I had flu for a fortnight. This is my normal and I hate it! I just feel frustrated due to the fact that I… Read More I didn’t want to do anything today.
I also can’t sleep when I am feeling hungry either. I need to get my stomach used to not being full so that it doesn’t stop me sleeping or functioning when I am awake. As long as I drink fluids there is no need to eat a lot. I will have lost pounds in just… Read More I seriously need to not feel hunger.
I want to be happy surrounded by people that I like / love or whatever but as soon as I start making steps in that direction I get so insecure. I start thinking about my past experiences and it makes my anxiety extremely high. Then that kicks my autism behaviours off which tend to end… Read More Then … all my insecurities start to manifest.
I barely slept last and when finally woke up I felt stiff from the gym. I can move again now. I am having a little walk after doing what I had to do in town. That is one thing ticked off my never ending list. I have tidied up and cleaned a little of my… Read More Still disorganised but going through my to do list…
I did my 10,000 steps today and then went the gym after my evening meal. I had my hair and eyebrows done today. I am trying to go the gym while I can because apparently it is due to snow again and get colder so those conditions will make it harder to get over to… Read More Busy busy busy!
I have laid here for hours feeling very tired but sleep just isn’t happening. I swear that my brain refuses to function properly. I took an hour in the bath when I got home tonight. I lost track of time for a while. How can you feel like only 5 minutes has gone passed when… Read More Insomnia is back.