I can’t fall asleep again. I feel lost tonight but I have no idea why. I’m feeling sick too. That is never going to lead to sleep. I am tired but can’t settle. I’m like this every single night. It has been quite severe the last few months. I started being awake at night and… Read More Sleep just isn’t happening tonight.
I managed to get some more of my tutor marked assignment done today. I slept in late but did enough to make sure that I finish it by the deadline. I just have to go over the answers and type my reference list. That doesn’t take as much effort as the parts I have already… Read More Slow progress but at least I’m getting somewhere.
I think that I only had 2 hours sleep this morning. I can’t remember falling asleep at 6am and woke up about 9am. I have literally not stopped all day. I started typing up my tutor marked assignment answers this morning. I had my hair highlighted and cut this afternoon. I came home this evening… Read More I need an early night.
I may not be pregnant but I certainly feel like I’m experiencing ‘baby brain’ or perhaps getting old. I used to be able to match any name to a face. I recently have found that I can see someone’s face and not be able to think of their name. I used to be overly efficient… Read More I am having one of those forgetful phases.
I don’t feel ready to do volunteering yet. I felt better for the first time in years the other day. That isn’t a consistent feeling yet. I still am far from the point of being ready to do work yet. I feel awful that I’m not ready. I don’t want to be seen as lazy.… Read More I’m not ready yet 😦 Trauma still affects me despite thinking I had turned a corner.
I want to be busy in life but it makes me unsettled. That is worse when I’m trying new things. I decided to apply to volunteer inside but also outside my comfort zone. I’m sure that I’ll be okay when I have been a few times. I won’t be meeting the organisation until Tuesday. I… Read More Unsettled due to busy week ahead.
People just do not listen to what I try to explain to them. I have tried to convince others that I’m not what they assume but their refusal to understand autism, especially the PDA type is a huge barrier. I thought that by publishing my full story on the about em page would start to… Read More I don’t know why I bother.
I started bleeding again. I absolutely shouldn’t be on my monthly any longer. I’m not getting anything done properly when these things happen. I’ve got a TMA due for 11th December. If this kicks off to the point where I have to seek hospital treatment then I’m not going to get that done. I’ve only… Read More I am ill again 😦 It’s getting irritating….
I haven’t felt normal for a few months. I finally felt like I used to a long time ago after I woke up properly today. I felt like I was in a hole for a few months. I managed to do some housework without getting to the point of being exhausted. That isn’t something I’ve… Read More I’m doing much better than I have been recently 🙂
I posted the photos below on a few social network groups last night. I was just curious because intuitively I don’t feel that life will ever get better. I know that I’m doomed after someone told me be careful of fake friends. There is no way that I’m not going to be tripped up by… Read More Looks like my destiny is doomed 😦