I keep getting told that I should move on from things that have happened. I have but it isn’t as simple as ’moving on’. There are so many more levels. Things aren’t so black and white. It hasn’t even been 6 months yet. It wasn’t just that I had met someone which I liked and… Read More This is what people just don’t understand.
I have taken myself back several steps by eating a big bar of chocolate two evenings in a row. I now look really chunky in the dress I am wearing today. I swear that my waist has grown in a few days but my lower stomach has gone down a bit due to making sure… Read More I never progress properly.
I went to bed at a decent time (11pm) with the intention of having an early night. That didn’t happen and now I am stuck awake. I just can’t settle. I was sleeping quite well for at least 3 weeks but now insomnia has come back. I have no idea why it has flipped back… Read More I can’t settle tonight.
I got up later after being woken up by the cats at half 5. One of them did a smelly poop in the litter tray which was impossible to ignore. I got up, had breakfast and medication. Then went back to sleep about half 1. I got up and went to have my nails done.… Read More This is a rest day for me…
I woke up quite early after an awful nights sleep. I kept waking up, got hot so couldn’t settle back down to sleep etc. I felt sick when I woke up. I just don’t think that I want to go out today. I feel tired and fed up. I still keep getting itchy skin despite… Read More First thought of the day… just no!
I woke up slightly hung over… can’t drink more than one day during weekends now at nearly 35. I was fine on Saturday morning but my head was so sore this morning. I have the worse itchy skin due to allergies. I also think something bit me. It isn’t cat fleas because I checked them.… Read More Uneventful day.
I just don’t understand how others manage to fake their feelings or put on an act. I simply cannot do it. I never have been able to even mask as much as other autistic people. I just am my authentic self without any effort. How can others be so fake? I don’t get how they… Read More I just don’t get it.
I really want another chance because I still need them. This has nothing to do with the BPD favourite person thing. I am over that part of the attraction. That only happens at the beginning of knowing someone. Then it fizzles out. I need that friendship though. I was doing much better after meeting them… Read More I want another chance. Please may I have one?
I woke up to find that I had lost a kg. I decided to have a rest day as a celebration. I am still feeling a bit down due to how the friendship ending at Christmas is affecting me. I still feel depressed sometimes because I was thinking that a new beginning was going to… Read More Rest day in celebration of weight loss. Depression is still up and down.
The car seat took over half an hour to get the monthly blood out. I think that I managed to get out but won’t be able to see if it has properly disappeared until it dries out. I am hoping that the warm weather will dry it out quite quickly. I kind of have a… Read More I am having a challenging day…