Trying new things…

I look different because I’m trying new things. I have make up on. I don’t allow myself to be influenced much but the youngsters on TikTok kind of tempted me to try it. I’m not used to putting on make up, I just don’t like it. I bet I will have a headache by the end of the day. I’m hat happens when I put on make up normally. It will also probably come off when I’m at the gym later. I’m also fed up with being called mum when I go on TikTok live by teenagers and people in their early 20s. I am a mum but not theirs. I’m honoured at the title though, especially when my own son was taken from me. I was never even recognised as that when I had him because I looked very young at 25. I hope I still look slightly younger now. I know that I won’t get away with it forever. I’m 36 at this point. One cheeky little git said I looked 48 once but luckily no one else has said I look like I’m heading toward 50. I still think that anyone who didn’t age doing the stuff I was trying to change bits of the system and clear my name from the past basically wouldn’t have aged dramatically too in just a few years. I am the type of person who will put 100% in anything and end up burning myself out. I want to be liked by others but if I’m fighting to change stuff that they don’t want I happen I am aware I will be seen as in the way.