If others want to make things right with me they’re going to have to make a move.

I’m intuitive and I think the reasons I may be seeing things relating to someone else again (it stopped but only for like a day or so) is because they’re thinking about what happened between us. I totally understand if they are nervous. I would be the same if it was the other way around. I could forcibly try to fight my own anxiety and break the ice in person but I have issues there too. I honestly don’t know if I am reading the room (or intuition) correctly. I don’t want it to be awkward around someone I liked but completely after the opposite because that’s related to my issues. I will try not to be intimidating or scary. I know that I’m naturally in peoples faces despite my shy introverted side. If they want to bury what happened with me just do it. The thinking on it won’t help. I know that makes it worse for me. It has taken me years to do certain things due to my brain holding me back thinking of everything that could go wrong. It won’t go wrong. I will ensure that now I know the background of the other person. I will support them to come forward as much as I can with my autism. I’m not mean. We just got off on the wrong foot (no pun intended). I feel bad for what I said now I know some more details. I can’t take that back. I can assure others that I do understand. I remember my own past and how it led to who I am in the present. I can be stand-offish but that comes from being bullied and people treating me like crap throughout my life. I am kind underneath. I just have a tough front in self protection mode. I’m very accommodating and polite. Some women would have purely told the guys adding them and popping up in their DM’s to F off but I let them down gently. If they didn’t listen I did block them. I didn’t have to do that to many of them. I wasn’t listening to the other person before and their actions didn’t make sense to me until I read about their past online which they’d shared on their business website. I wasn’t being understanding at the time.

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