I just don’t get it.

I wasn’t aware of certain things when I was horrible to someone else. I still don’t understand why they have cut me off for good. I’m not a bully. I was bullied and I thought initially that they were being intentionally a certain way towards me which is why I was a certain way to them. I do care and think a lot of them. I’m just not good at expressing that in a positive way. If they cared how they were making me feel they wouldn’t be the way they’re being right now. It’s keeping me awake tonight because I know that I should read up on people before I upset them by accident. I hurt them but didn’t mean to do that. Then the way they continue to treat me isn’t fair either.