I ended up doing 23,000 ish steps on my walk today before it got cold without a coat on to the point I couldn’t feel my fingers. I am currently in the bath thawing out. I have my dinner cooking so this can’t be a long entry. I’m very tired so some of what I write may not make a lot of sense. I may have stopped seeing signs that was slowly driving me mad but I still feel extremely guilty for things I said which if I knew the full facts about someone else then I wouldn’t have said them. I feel like a right awful person. I don’t think I even meant what I said. I was just plain being mean because I misinterpreted the way they were acting. I can’t repair it and they won’t ever speak to me again.