Exhausted :(

I didn’t even go the gym last week because I didn’t feel up to it. I walked lots so it isn’t like I was lazy. I feel less exhausted physically than mentally. Emotionally I’ve flipped the off switch because I feel everything due to being intuitive and I can’t stand the intensity of picking up things. I’m completely done with emotional connection until I have got over burn out completely. I can’t allow that side of me to drag me down. I will never get over burn out if I don’t close that side of me down for the foreseeable future. I do care but I’m too burnt out right now. I shouldn’t freely put myself out there emotionally because others abuse that part of me all the time. I’m not able to do that anymore. Others can drain the energy of naturally intuitive people. I’ve let that happen. People take constantly but never give anything back. I don’t want to let that happen anymore. I can’t do that anymore. I’ve started having migraines frequently again. I haven’t had them this bad since I was in the education system doing my qualifications. Migraines are a sign that I’m getting extremely burnt out. I may not look it however mentally I’m feeling the huge weight. The behaviour of others really weighs heavily on me. I shouldn’t care but I do. I feel like those things are like bricks being loaded on my head. Others make no attempt to make it better for me. I end up physically suffering because of what others do to me emotionally. They don’t care about the consequences it has for me. I am sensitive but that doesn’t make it right.

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