People try to justify their actions in many ways but let me tell you how it really is in black and white. Regardless of what is the reasoning behind a decision. I think some of those reasons given are a load of excuses but my opinion is another level to this entirely which isn’t up for discussion via this post. In black and white, I was not seen as good enough for others to not discard me. I am fully aware that some people thought that I wouldn’t get off the mental health clause. I proved you all wrong. So maybe I was misjudged etc? I work hard enough to earn the right to be good enough. I’m not some layabout. Even when I can’t sleep at night because of the way others have treated me I still get up to do stuff. I have learnt how to do things on very little sleep. I would love to fix it with others but they have no desire to fix stuff with me because as I said I’m just not good enough. I lost weight, I work hard despite not being paid and I give a shit… but still lots of excuses because I’m still not good enough.