I feel worse about it now I know what’s been said behind my back. I’m always excluded and talked about negatively. I don’t like it but people won’t quit doing it. The apology I gave should have been enough. Nope, what I said will be held against me forever. That isn’t fair. I was just being honest. The way I was being treated then wasn’t even right… so I laid it on. I’m sorry but that is my BPD side. I don’t do it on purpose. I do it when I feel I’m being rejected. I don’t want to be seen as bad because I said something. It won’t stop keeping me awake until it’s fixed. It’s doing my head in.
One response to “I’m awake again at a stupid hours, somehow the truth I found out makes it worse.”
It takes courage to apologize and be honest about one’s feelings. Don’t be too harsh on yourself. Remember, mistakes happen, and people can change. Keep striving to improve your relationships and communication skills.