I will always have my autism diagnosis but it’s just a label. People change underneath at their base personality due to things they’ve been through. I have a rule now. When it comes to others, you do NOT touch the Em. I think of myself as a product not a person when it comes to the blog stuff. That is what you have to be. I do not do emotion now. I have simply turned off that switch. That is easy for someone with trauma to do. They simply do not feel joy much after their traumatic experiences. I wish that I could feel like I used to do. I just don’t. I did start to open up again but then got kicked down again by someone so I’m not opening up again. I’m sick of getting burnt by others constantly. I won’t ever let it happen again.