I feel awful today.

I woke up in a lot of pain. I’m not up yet because I’m comfortable in bed for a few more hours. The weather is crap anyway. It’s been raining for a few hours. I’m probably going to have this week off the gym to recover. I had to do that the other week because I ended up so tired. I can push myself so far and then I’m either too tired or in pain. I probably will gain a bit of weight but sometimes it can’t be helped. Physically I’m not completely ok so I go the gym when I am better. I know that I should try to get up during the day but the pain is making it hard to move around without being uncomfortable. It’s like dragging excess weight around. I fed the cats and they’ve come back to bed with me. They love group napping sessions. I heard from the social worker for the adult mental health team. They were asking me if I had changed my mind in regard to coming off the section 117 aftercare clause. I confirmed that my views remain the same. I’m not changing my mind. I have known what I wanted for months, maybe years. Is it so hard to just accept my view rather than asking me to reconsider? They’re making the process so hard when it could be simple. I have valid reasons to want to be removed from the clause. I’m not just saying that I want off of it for no reason. I don’t want to go into them right now but may have mentioned them in previous posts. I’m very sure about my wishes and I’m not reconsidering regardless of how many times I’m asked. I said the same at the meeting last week.