I woke up again but at least I slept…

I got to sleep but then I woke up needing the toilet and now I’m too awake again. I tried to not wake myself up too much. I need to sleep a bit more because I have to get up tomorrow (well, later today now). I also let my brain start thinking which isn’t helpful either. I am hurt by others right now but my intuition is telling me stuff too. I would rather others just tell me why they’ve been so weird recently. It would stop me feeling like I am doing thinking that I am a really bad undesirable person. I know that certain other people don’t know me that well, it’s natural to be guarded, if I didn’t do a blog then nothing on social network would be public at all. I don’t put everything on here because I’m also guarded about certain aspects of my life. I’m not like everyone else though, whether others tell me stuff or not I’m naturally intuitive and pick it up anyway. I don’t always pick up specific details but I can feel there is something. I don’t want things to stay as they are between me and others because it makes me feel bad about myself. I didn’t sleep properly for weeks and now my sleep pattern is more like the occasional nap during the day. That is unfair on me… yes, I am aware that it’s not others fault that I’m a sensitive soul who lets things keep them awake… may I point out again – natural intuitive… that makes me be kept awake by things. People don’t know me and I have a past but I’m not that person anymore. I’m not going to abuse my position if anyone lets me in their life. I’ll refrain from being annoying, rude or anything else irritating. I can do that when I’m on medication. I was stupid for ever coming off of my antidepressants.