I’m already finding the current storyline of coronation street with that Justin stalking daisy. We are watching it and my mother starts saying accusatory things about my past. I have moved on from how I used to be mentally and I don’t want to be taken back there. The guy in coronation street is going to throw acid in her face at some point soon. I am definitely not that type of person. I do struggle with rejection but it doesn’t trigger me like it did when I was younger. I made mistakes due to being naive and inexperienced. I was never a bad person. I’m fed up of people holding my past over my head. If my mother had been more emotionally warm and available then maybe I would have never have grown up with those issues. There is always a reason why for everything. There can only be an end to unwanted behaviour if the person who has it can understand how it developed in the first place. I wasn’t put in the right kind of family and environment growing up to really feel supported being autistic. Then the system also let me down so I was failed from all sides.