Late night thoughts… awake again.

I’m not quite tired yet because sleep pattern is such a mess. I just let the cat out so hopefully he will be returning soon. I’m going to be very pissed off if he decides to come in just as I have closed my eyes. He has a habit of doing that. I’m sore and inflamed after the gym session. I’m bloated anyway at this point of the month so that isn’t helping. I just have to work through this every month for about a fortnight. Hormones are so annoying. I have oil on my hair ready to wash it in the morning (or most likely afternoon/evening when I finally wake from sleeping). I envy how well cats can just fall asleep. Mimi is curled up on the pillow next to me. I suppose that having no worries apart from when the food bowl is set to be filled is a peaceful existence. They also just don’t care in general which helps be able to sleep. I would sleep without any issues if I simply did not care. I care too much about things I don’t even have any control over. I don’t know why I’m wasting my time in this country when there are two other places saying that they are willing to offer people money to live there and on one of the Greek islands they even give you a house etc because they only have 50 residents. They pay you £500 a month for 3 years. There is a place in Italy saying they’ll pay people to live there due to their aging population. They pay a lump sum of £25,000 but don’t provide a home so you have to use that money to get a place. There was also another place but they wanted families of 4 or more to settle because their population didn’t have enough families. I don’t speak either of those languages though and in small areas there isn’t normally a lot of English speakers. I don’t even speak English that well despite that being my native language. I tried to learn French and German at school but I just couldn’t grasp it. I happened to see the above information on social media. I’m sure that anyone who knows the above languages and wants to move and start a new life could Google it to see how to arrange it. I would love to have a new life but maybe not that far away. I find change quite hard. That would be a complete change so probably not a wise idea. I have to ease myself into things. I can’t do that by upping sticks and moving to another country. Those places aren’t like the UK. The things I’m used to won’t be there. I’m very doubtful that they even have things like supermarkets in those tiny places let alone the things that I do now.

%d bloggers like this: