I feel sad today.

I woke up early after not having much sleep so I feel like crap and am planning on going back to sleep for a while. I woke up feeling sad. I don’t want things to stay this way between me and someone else. I will always like them a bit despite the surrounding circumstances. I don’t want to reach out first because the timing of any future communication initiation isn’t up to me. That has been taken out of my hands. If I initiate anything it will be guaranteed not to work out. I also can’t because I have my own lessons to learn in that area. I can’t always be the one to reach out. Those that do this are never respected by others or appreciated. I have to pull back my energy to not always be available for my own sake and to protect myself.