I did the wrong thing.

There is a reason why you’re told to take medication a certain way. I did it to the exact instructions and had no issues with monthly flooding this month. I also don’t have breaking nails etc because I haven’t let my iron levels drop. I’m feeling so much better than I have in a long time. The eyelashes are growing back along with the side bits of my hair which went dry and snapped off. I think that might be the medication the hospital has given me. It has helped my finger swelling and other bits that have swollen (toe, ankle, knee) in just a week. I should never have come off antidepressants. I was so miserable pretending to everyone I was fine self medicating with alcohol and sometimes painkillers. I really wasn’t ok but I wanted to be medication free. I feel much more content after only a fortnight on them. I don’t have the constant anxiety. I have more motivation to get up to do things. I’ve been naturally waking up at 6 am every morning. I used to not be able to sleep at night and then slept most of the day a lot. I have said a lot of stuff under the influence of alcohol which I regret… I’m brutally honest naturally without the help of alcohol. I can’t re what I may have emailed or said to others but I can imagine it was quite the equivalent of a dagger in word form. I know me when I’ve had alcohol and emotionally hurting. I don’t even barely want alcohol now I’m back on antidepressants. I made the wrong decision to come off of them.