Comfortable in hermit mode…

Right now I’m comfortable in hermit mode. I fell asleep for a while but still tired. I don’t give a crap about Valentine’s Day … it’s just an over commercialised day. I have always been single my entire life. I couldn’t be with another person after the trauma I have been through which other people caused. I like my own space. I need to rest at the moment. I’ve never been attractive to others so why bother with a day where I’m only going to end up left out? I am like a child when it comes to that part of life. I even look ridiculously young for my age where no one takes me seriously still. The fact that I look quite young doesn’t work for me in many ways. I look at people the same age as me and I look younger like I age slower. That isn’t a bad thing in itself. There’s lots of people who want to be slower to age. I just feel left behind in time because others my age and younger are more experienced than me in most areas of life. I feel left behind like I’ve missed out.