It’s not fair that I am this tired and affected by how other people have been with me. I haven’t been able to stay awake the entire day and kept going freezing cold. I can feel the swelling in my knee and finger again. I was a victim not the perpetrator. Everyone got it wrong. I had to live a life full of judgement and hate because of it. I wish that others would have seen that I’m not a bad person. The things that happened was due to trauma. I didn’t even know that was a thing then because I’d never heard of it. The word has only really just emerged recently along with all the pronoun debates. I don’t want to start a debate here but autistic people don’t get treated fairly. Then they get blamed for having trauma from being treated badly. We are just constantly failed by society because we aren’t neurotypical lay programmed. That his what causes this burn out and it never really goes away because we never get a chance to recover.