I couldn’t sleep so I got up and did stuff (Updated entry)

I briefly fell asleep but woke up randomly after a dream. I woke up shouting and I don’t even know what I was dreaming about. It must have been disturbing to wake up like that. Anyway, I woke up and haven’t wasted my time while I’ve been awake during the night. The complaint about the meeting situation is done. The PIP form is filled in and they’re all ready to send off tomorrow (well, later today now). It should all get there next week if I send it all by 2nd class tomorrow. The PIP form has a second class envelope with it so I don’t have to put a stamp on that. I’ve taken a copy on the photo app via my phone camera so I know exactly what info is contained in complaint and claim form. I wrote it yes, but I will forget details if I don’t record them. I forget stuff, that is part of my disability issues. I am going to try to go back to sleep but I don’t think I will be able to sleep at the moment. I hope I don’t have that dream that made me wake up shouting again. I don’t even remember details only what I was thinking about before I fell asleep. I’m trapped in an energy from someone else whether I walk away or not. I now feel bad for being brutally honest with them which isn’t like me. I normally don’t give a shit if I tell someone how I see things. I don’t know what the other person might be going through. I might have just added the last straw to their day when they were already dealing with life crap. Even when I’m a bitch I still am accidentally kind. I can’t be mean for long. There’s no point trying to sort it with them because they just don’t want to know. I’m not wasting my time and energy. I have a lot on myself which is why I do need to actually sleep a little bit if possible. I have to take the cat to the vets again on Friday because the other vet has taken over misters care and she’s kind of the strict type that says you do have to get him there by half 8 so that he is booked in before the main appointments are starting otherwise we will end up in the same position as the other day. I struggle to get up when I haven’t slept. That will probably definitely be the case tomorrow if it has been the case tonight. I have to ring the GP about my antidepressants when they open in a few hours. I have my own appointment for the rheumatologist next week. That is going to be hard to get there for 10 am if I’m not sleeping. I’m not really sleepy now and it’s like nearly 6 am.

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