This is how I’ve been affected for weeks…

I don’t want to appear vulnerable but I think that it is about time that people are open about how others actions affect people. But, maybe the likes of me aren’t people to some. For instance, autism, mental illness means that we don’t have a soul. I have spent days in bed because I couldn’t sleep at night. It’s nearly 7pm and I haven’t eaten or drank anything. I still have a messy flat because lack of sleep due to other peoples behaviour has prevented me from doing that because I was too tired. I have to get up and go out to get money for the person installing the washing machine tomorrow. That will require getting dressed but I’ve basically wasted another day due to other people keeping me awake. I’m fed up with it. I am getting held back because of the way it is affecting me. It isn’t fair. Then they wonder why I start saying mean stuff. I am tired because the situation kept me awake and people get pissed off when they’re tired. I’m human regardless of how others want to treat me. We can’t go without sleep and not feel grumpy. It will affect us eventually. I am fed up with others just ignoring my feelings and leaving me on so called support clauses but ignoring my support needs.