I’m doing this now because I have to be up early in the morning to take the cat to the vets. Therefore this is technically squished together near to the other post because I need to try not stay up all night. Tonight isn’t really a topic… it’s just me voicing how I feel… as normal. I am frustrated because I know I’m being ignored by someone I used to like before they went cold on me. It kept me awake during Christmas but now I’ve got stuff to distract myself to a point. I take an interest in others but they don’t give a shit about me or anything that I do… that pisses me off a lot. They really do not know what I’ve been saying bout them behind their back because they just weren’t interested in looking at the blog etc. I’m used to being discarded easily. Maybe that won’t ever change. I know that older people have all the friends they want to acquire in life because time gets more fuller for people if they work and have family etc. I’m just not fortunate enough to have that. If you mean anything to anyone they will make an effort regardless of being busy most of the time. I don’t feel good enough. If someone refuses to let their wall’s down and sit down to communicate properly then nothing is going to get any better. The other side is refusing to do that so it won’t get better. If people don’t listen to us then we can’t do nothing to go in a certain direction.