The things I said today to various people were well thought out and meant to hurt. I chose things I knew would hurt because I know that if someone said them to me I would be hurt by it. That was for all the times I felt left out in the cold and rejected especially near Christmas. If my opinion meant something to any of those people then they obviously do care even if they don’t show it. It probably didn’t but I hope it hurt enough to make others realise how rejected I feel because of how they treated me. The way that the rejection sparked off an eating disorder because I just wanted to be perfect so that others wanted me. I had to try to trigger others to get them to see how I was impacted.