I don’t like mornings even when I’ve slept more than normal.

I got back to sleep. I’m not looking forward to doing the cleaning and tidying around here today but I can’t leave it any longer. I have my alarm set for 11 am so I’m technically in front of myself. I slept for 6 hours in total. I had the total split into two parts but it’s better than I normally get which is 4 to 5 hours on average per day. Others haven’t helped recently but I’m not letting them get to me anymore. I walked away because I didn’t like how they made me feel and they were ignoring me anyway. I kind of look like a player myself because some guy was messaging me on Nextdoor social media site yesterday. I told him that I was walking and would catch up with him later. I never did because I was extremely tired so ended up going to bed. I’m not even interested. I told him I didn’t even like guys. That doesn’t put them off. It seems to make them try harder, like if they try really hard they may flip your inner switch back to straight. That app is not a dating site. Men have stopped using fb and instagram platforms to message random women they like the look of now. We stopped replying on those platforms. I’ve had it on twitter and now this app more recently. If people want to date they should go on the specific apps made for that goal. I’m not on those things. I joined tinder for a joke to see what it was all about. I don’t use it now though. I’m just not interested in dating. I just want to not do that part. I believe that if you’re meant to meet someone and end up with them (whether it’s relationship or even friendship) you’ll meet in the course of every day life. Apparently my parents met at work in a building on Stockwell head (I think it’s called that from what I remember). That was random because my dad used to work in Coventry for as long as I remember and apparently did before I was born. People didn’t used to have all these apps to connect. That generation didn’t communicate via technology at all. We have tried to get mum to have a mobile (even bought her one that she could see and that was simple to use) and introduced her to email. She just won’t do it. Dad had a mobile phone and even tried facebook reluctantly at one point. Anyway, before I go off the subject. I’m trying to say that I don’t do all the dating apps or even have a goal in that direction. I don’t believe in soulmates, well, I do believe that some people are soulmates but not everyone has one. According to spirituality, everyone is supposed to be part of a twin flame soul that broke apart and separated when they came to this existence. I don’t feel like there’s another half of my soul out there. I’ve met others who I am sure are a single soul that was never connected to another half at any point in their existence. That makes sense to me but others tell me that I’m wrong etc.

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