I tried to get back to sleep but I couldn’t. I can’t stay like this because I get nothing done. I feel sore because my skin is kicking off. I have sore eyes too but that is from looking at my phone too much. I am stressed with other people but I refuse to be because that gives others some kind of power over me. I try to no longer allow that but it’s easier said than done. I also try to turn off my intuition because it’s telling me things about others lives that is none of my business. Even if they’re unhappy why do I have to know? I’m no longer in communication with them so why burden me? I can’t do anything if others won’t let me in anyway. I’m not happy but even if others knew that they would not care. I naturally do care but I’m choosing not to do so. I’m walking away because I didn’t feel welcome any longer. If others are unhappy with whatever is going on in their lives then they should just do something about it. I’m going to try to move so that I can be happier away from here. It’s all about finding a way to ditch what is making you unhappy. I’m the type that will just do what I feel that I need to do on impulse. There are always going to be people who don’t like the decisions I make but after all that I lost trying to do everything to please everyone else for a long time… I just don’t care anymore. There’s no point waiting to change things if the ending is inevitable regardless of whether it happens sooner or later. It’s never going to be easy because life just doesn’t have an easy mode. If there was an easy mode I would be able to turn my sleep issues off.
2 responses to “Sleep didn’t happen.”
You’ve been watching Netfux all night again, haven’t you? Naughty hamster.