I have started accidentally becoming a bit racist due to my experiences. I am starting to get really defensive against those who are people of colour. That is probably due to what has just happened between me and a person of colour. Then when you flip back to my school days. The teacher who was responsible for getting me labelled was dark skinned because she was Mediterranean descent but had an Asian surname because she married an Asian. Trauma is now saying to my head that as a white fuel they all look down on me because I’m seen as not good enough. That those people will always get more than the likes of me. That all has materialised from me seeing that someone was cold toward me and rejected me on a personal level.