According to my phone, I have only had 3 hours sleep which probably explains why I am not wanting to even get up. I have finally started monthly. I still have a swollen along with the lower part of my hand now. I still have a swollen knee but that is just mild compared to my hand issue. I just feel emotionally done right now. I don’t even want to get up to do anything. I have a lot to do but I can’t. Mentally I’m just switching off due to lack of sleep. Others can’t see how they affect me. I can physically walk away from anything but that doesn’t mean it will stop affecting me whatsoever. I wish it could be a choice but right now it most definitely isn’t. I don’t feel hopeful at all right now. I just want to sleep but can’t a lot.