I ended up sleeping most of the day wasted so that’s another day of no daylight. I can’t keep not seeing daylight, I’m pale enough as it is naturally without no light on me at all. It’s too late to get anything done by the time I wake up. I don’t want to live like this any longer. It’s horrible. This isn’t living. I can’t do it any longer. Why can’t I just die now? I’ve had my life. I don’t what to do anymore. I hurt over how others treat me. It’s like I’m not good enough. I don’t even want to get dressed and go out the door today because of how it affects me. I don’t even want to be alive because it’s pointless if people don’t like you.