Firstly, I finally got into bed after keeping myself awake all day to reset sleep pattern and it feels so nice especially with my electric blanket on. I have been picturing my bed while on a walk in the cold weather that’s how much I wanted to go back to bed all day. Anyway, while… Read More I’m just too used to certain things being the way they are…
I have just got back from my walk. It is freezing cold out there. I’m thawing out in the bath (no I won’t drop my phone for those of you thinking that… I try not to be clumsy when doing so could be expensive). I have somehow managed to stay up for many hours feeling… Read More Counting down the hours until I can go to sleep…
I ended up moving the mattress myself today because I didn’t want anyone in my space. I didn’t go back to bed because so much in my flat needed sorting out, cleaning and tidying. I’m on a short walk but not going far because I’m tired after only 2 hours sleep and I don’t think… Read More I don’t know how I’m still awake. I did it all myself.
It’s technically morning at this point. The rain is hammering down again, and I’ve only slept for one hour. If anyone wants a proper blog entry to read scroll down and click on the mental illness becoming a trend one that I posted earlier this evening. The others aren’t that well written because I wrote… Read More Still awake… slept for just one hour.
I’m still not asleep which isn’t a good thing because now I’ve started thinking and random questions start entering my head like maybe I’m not supposed to be happy? I know other people pretend to be happy but behind closed doors they hide stuff. They are probably at least happy a bit. I can’t say… Read More Ever thought your not meant to be happy?
It’s that sleep / wake thing going on again. I fell asleep with the cat who moved because apparently, she didn’t like me holding her paw. Maybe she woke me up moving. It’s dead online tonight… as it should be in the UK because it’s nighttime. I shouldn’t be awake but for some reason I… Read More I fell asleep but now I’ve woken up again.
There has been much discussion in regard to having another child recently with myself and various options. I’m not sure regardless of whether I go down the pride angel donor route or have one with my friend. I am not sure that my friend is fully aware of what he is agreeing to do. I… Read More I don’t think I want to go there again.