Day: November 13, 2022

  • Trauma affects me randomly sometimes.

    I can’t cancel my appointment and not face it because my toenails are digging in again. They hurt last night. Anyway, I’m hoping it’s all in my head and that it’s not my intuition. I am mostly over what happened in my life but occasionally I get my feelings triggered by something tiny within a…

  • I can’t concentrate… too worried.

    I’m so worried. I can’t relax. I’m scared that I’ve messed things up. I probably haven’t but I can’t blend in and be normal. I can’t take anything back. What if I look like something I don’t want to look like? I have no malicious intent, but it hasn’t stopped people before. I am that…

  • I try to tell my mind not to overthink stuff but it still does :(

    I am still affected by what happened with A and others in my past. I’m actually embarrassed about being open with someone I’m literally going to be seeing tomorrow. I’m scared that because I was open and gave them the blog link, they will want nothing more to do with me. I’m so used to…

  • Just not happy today.

    I woke up feeling really awful. This is what happens when you stay up the entire night. At least monthly isn’t being like it was yesterday. I haven’t had to take medication today. I have kept it controlled so I shouldn’t have anemia again. I think it’s just lack of proper sleep. I would not…

  • I still get petrified that I have made the wrong impression.

    I’m still awake. I have been listening to music most of the night. I am still affected by my past. I try to tell myself not to stress out about this stuff, but rejection has left me not able to fully do that. I even remember the last interaction I had with another to be…