Emotionally tired :(

There are many times a week that I feel I’d rather be dead because I’m that emotionally tired. I get on with things but never truly will get over the things that have happened to me. I don’t turn to anyone else nowadays because I learnt that no one cares about anyone else but themselves. I don’t want to get any trouble from anyone ever again. I’m not even suicidal… I’m just tired and would rather not be here anymore. It’s too much effort. I just want to go home because being alive is just depressing.