I am completely exhausted. Random stuff happened today.

I am glad that others keep saying I look like I have my spark back… I’m kind of exhausted though. I have not stopped for days apart from to sleep and that is only for 5 hours ish a night. That is at least more than I was getting for a long time. Firstly, what is it with everyone putting the same tone of colour in their hair? I was one of the first to put this colour in my hair and then everyone has slowly followed. I was trying to be different and now I blend in again. I know it’s halloween and half of those putting sprigs of purple pink in their hair will most likely not keep it … but I want to be known for the mermaid hair. I’ve blended the colour into my hair in that kind of style. I snapped another hair tie tonight (my thick hair finishes off a few a year) which is getting more of a regular occurrence now that it’s getting long. I always have a full set at the beginning of the year and only one or two by the end of the year. Anyway, something weird happened earlier when I was cleaning. I had the pile of tarot cards on my bedside table. 3 fell on the floor with their faces upwards. They were the magician, two of swords and six of wands. Magician is the manifestation card and it’s positive because that card wasn’t reversed. Two of swords could be about decisions. I know for sure that the six of wands definitely means success, victory… it’s only normally a positive card. Just after my son got adopted and the university stuff was in the very beginnings of kicking off to do with A etc, the cards tumbled all over the floor with the tower card (that is one you don’t want to see if you wish for a trouble free life) on top of the pile that had spread underneath it. I don’t know what todays cards were in relation to but I do know that life is given to us in cycles… maybe my bad cycle is finally over because I’ve become what I’m meant to be. It only ends when we have completed the stages of the journey that we are meant to go down. I don’t know but that is what I’ve heard.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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