Firstly, this isn’t going to be a very long post because I didn’t get in until late. I went for a long walk while I was over near the hairdressers and my mums etc. I have managed to lose nearly 9 lbs in 6 weeks. It’s been hard work, but I won’t get back down to what I used to be unless I make the effort. I still drink alcohol at weekends and treat myself so I’m not completely living a miserable life. That is the best way to do it. If you cut everything out, then as soon as you start introducing those things back the weight lost can rapidly return and you may gain more than previously. The whole cutting out carbs, alcohol, sugary stuff completely is not a sustainable way to stop the process of regaining all the weight you’ve made an effort to lose. There are people who chose not to eat carbs because they do make you look thicker in figure but I like pasta etc so I definitely am not going there.
I have met so many people that have been awful toward me. I was thinking earlier that I will probably not trust anyone again or even believe that anyone has any good intentions because of my experiences. I would love to be able to relax when it comes to others, but I just can’t trust them. I probably will never meet someone who is truly loves me … I am not lovable. I naturally annoy people. I don’t even like people after what has happened to me (read about me page, way too much to glide over). I want to go back out there but at the same time I don’t. I have to go back out so that I’m not stuck any longer.