So… I’m officially 35 and anything I promised after having alcohol last night probably won’t be possible.

Well, it’s official… I’m nearly over the hill (35 years old today) and the days of looking young/attractive are now behind me. I may have messed around too much last night. I kind of promised to do something really psychologically scary for Halloween. I do have the ability to reach into people’s minds and take out information from their feelings, past, present or other random information but I simply can’t do it on demand. The only time that I have ever done it has been somewhat an accident when I’m highly emotional. I was able to do it with A and somehow (don’t ask me how it works) I seem to still have some kind of energy cord linked to her despite the situation that we continue to be in. I don’t tend to try to use my gifts because it can freak people out. That is probably partly the reason why A hasn’t reconsidered ever speaking to me (other reasons is what happened in the past, other people’s views on the situation and me). People seem to think that I can read their private thoughts just by being in communication with me. I wish that I could do this stuff on demand, but I haven’t mastered that yet. I’m a natural born Witch that can only really be myself at times like Halloween. I seem to look good in horror type costumes and filters… maybe I’m just supposed to be a mystical weird type of individual. I just cannot be normal, it’s like impossible. I could have been born on the actual date of Halloween if my mother hadn’t been induced earlier because I stopped growing (always been a pain in the ass right from conception).

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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