Birthday going ok … so far.

As far as birthdays go this one hasn’t been too bad. I put a load of weight on because it is near that time of the month… bloat week. I’m making sure that is all it is by upping my exercise routine last night. I used to do 100 of each exercise did 200 last night. If I have to fight my hormones I will. I went out without even eating today because I cut calories where I can. I don’t really feel hungry she. I first wake up. It’s now going to decide to rain on me. It isn’t that bad yet but hopefully it doesn’t do a repeat of yesterday. It’s started to come down heavy but I’m hoping this is just a shower. I had to get petrol so parked my car in Hinckley. I didn’t walk here today. I don’t think I’m leg will take that long of a walk. I don’t have the support on today. It started the other leg off which is the knee I thought had gone back to normal. Now the one I had the support on is really skinny around my kneecap and the other one looks fatter. I’m still thinking about the pride angel service. I would have gone for it by now if I hadn’t had such a bad experience the first time around. I know they the system can just walk in and take subsequent children after you’ve had one adopted despite what anyone says about the 5 years thing. I still have my disability that I won’t ever get rid of, so I have to be strategic about how I do this thing if I’m going ahead with it. It also doesn’t help that I already know what I’m walking into. I have to be at least mentally prepared for that and I can’t go into it being petrified that the system will walk in and take another baby from me. I don’t trust them, but I know the years are also passing fast and time will run out.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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