Very tired tonight… Uncomfortable to stay awake. I also have something that keeps popping into my head constantly that I think needs putting out there.

I cannot even remember the thing I was specifically planning to blog about tonight. I got back from my walk, had food and my energy just zapped. I shouldn’t be going to bed by 9 pm on my birthday weekend. Even if I’m not out enjoying myself I should at least be up later. I had to remove mister (cat) off my lap before I could even get into bed. He is wanting to cuddle up all the time and sleep on me. He does that when he’s got his issues going on. I may have to take him back to the vets soon. He’s also very vocal, keeps occasionally peeing around the place, licking his bum etc which are all signs of UTI issues. The stuff the vet gave him didn’t help long term and only lasted a week. He only gets fixed by antibiotics because it targets more than just the inflammation and pain he gets with them. I can’t do much over the weekend until places open Monday. That is my actual birthday but if he needs to go back then I will be going over to see the vets with him again. Apparently the PDSA mess around when it comes to treatments now. They don’t provide cures just mask pain etc. They have provided him with the needed medication years ago and his food was changed so they can give me the cure again. I have to drive him half an hour there and back. I’m not messing about because it costs petrol money, time and a whole lot of hassle trying to get him in the carrier. I’m absolutely exhausted. I’m not going for a walk tomorrow because I need a break. I would also just like to say something else because it keeps literally popping into my head. It must be important for me to say on here. Please do not judge me by what professionals have said about me. They didn’t know me. I was just in the system surrounded by what I later found out was untrue notes. Use your own judgment to do what is for the best. I’m sure the best in a decent human beings mind is polar opposite to actions recommended by professionals around me over the years. Do what makes things better and less awkward long term. I fought my way out of the cruel cold system because the way that I was treated in it caused me a lot of long lasting mental scars. That should tell people everything they need to know. The system has lacked any kind of loving quality that mentally I’ll people and / or those with disabilities need. Care has never been actual caring. Instead, it was merely individuals just picked up for being different and shoved in institutions etc.

It’s been a long night… now it may be an all nighter.

I managed to finish off getting rid of one set of emails from one of my email addresses. Then managed to do half of my other email address but there are lots still to get rid of… they can be done another day. I was very tired but then the neighbourhood cat came in (the black one that kept coming in a few weeks back). He is in a very aggressive mood. I don’t trust him so I opened the window and left him in my bedroom while I went in the living room for a while. Then he wanted to wander round the flat being nosey. So I opened the kitchen window and left the door closed so he had no other option but to go out. It worked eventually. My cats must have picked picked up that he is in attack mode because they went out the window rather than him. I am overly cautions with cats showing aggression because of cats get rabies or something they can full on attack humans if they’re losing their mind. That one was extremely aggressive to me. I am not one to normally leave the room but he really has one on him tonight. I was really tired and just about to go to bed when he snuck in the window after I let Mimi in. He might be trailing Mimi for ‘that’ kind of thing but please take it outside. I already have a migraine from endless hours of deleting vast amounts of spam emails. I’m trying to stop the ends of my hair becoming straw like to preserve as much lengths before my trim at the hairdresser in a fortnight. I may have to go sooner if they can fit me in because it may break too far up. It literally ends up knotting together at the ends when trying to comb it damp. Once it gets to that level it’s showing it needs a trim. I swear that I have lost lengths so it must have started breaking off with those knots. I did try to bleach out the ginger which probably wasn’t the best idea because I hadn’t only bleached ends a few weeks apart. I can never stay blond for long because this is how it goes. The straw like ends can’t even be moisturised, they just stay the same.