I don’t need these issues.

I no longer trust people but I still want to go out there to meet someone so that I can settle down. The issue is that I can’t now. Others that have screwed me over have made me unable to do that. I’m already at the age where I’m nearly ‘over the hill’ as far as the goal of meeting someone and settling down. Also, I just don’t like others enough. Whoever I meet will never be enough or exactly what I want so I won’t want to be with them. They will never compare to what I want. The person I want is unattainable. Let’s face it, by the time we get to 30 something all the best pickings of potential matches are already gone. Those of us that are still single at this age are either damaged, plain weird or has baggage from a previous relationship. The choice that is left is somewhat not pleasant. Those that were remotely any good in the relationship department have settled with someone already. I’m not a catch by any means and I apologise if anyone does end up with me. I don’t want to be on my own forever. It sucks to just have cats for company. They are ok but humans need other humans. Those people that hurt me by doing what they did to me because of their own issues have now passed those issues on to me. Now I’m overly cautious and I make any excuse as to why I don’t want to be with someone.

Author: Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).

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