I had a long nap until the afternoon with the cats. I haven’t had the plumber company contact me about coming to unblock the bath overflow yet. They were passed the job on Saturday (estate agents told me via email) so hopefully in the next few days they get in touch. I had to pack and send the parcel of hair dye which someone had purchased from me on eBay. I still have 3 nice n easy light blond hair dyes available if anyone is interested? They are literally brand new. I decided to do my hair differently so never used them. They are unopened. I then decided as I was out and had to walk to the parcel drop off anyway I may as well go for a long walk. I had lost a little. It more weight when I woke up. I’m exactly 75kg now. I should have started my monthly yesterday but it doesn’t seem to want to actually come on. It’s doing all that spotting stuff every so often. I haven’t cut my calories enough to stop my monthly cycle. And, before the rumours start, I’m 100% sure that I’m not pregnant. I haven’t been there with anyone so the likelihood is less than slim. I was merely discussing it not making a firm decision. It’s still just about on (I can feel the signs) but the hormone must be a little too low to actually produce a proper period. I swear I’ve been ovulating like crazy recently. I normally feel it and I’ve had the same feeling 3 times this month. The last time was only a few days ago. If it’s done that process several times it kind of explains what is happening now. It may just go for it so I have pads on me just in case because once the process starts it will get there eventually when the hormone levels get to the right point. I hope that I’m not going through that time yet. I’m regular and haven’t actually missed one yet so hopefully it’s not a sign. These things happen. I’ve literally been rushing around stressed trying to sort things out over the last few weeks (that is something I haven’t done since pre pandemic) so it might be that. The cat seems fine again so hopefully there will be no need for a trip to the vets this week. I want to clean out his cat carrier so I need to make sure we aren’t using it so that it has a few days to dry out. I managed to get myself a pre bookable doctors appointment for next week to discuss the referral that I need so that is arranged.
I don’t want to keep repeating this, but I will until people ‘get it’. I know that it seems ridiculous to others why I’m so insistent, but I absolutely cannot stand injustice. I was innocent but got pushed into pleading guilty for stuff that wasn’t my intention. The so-called harassment would never have happened if the university hadn’t taken the actions that they did. I only ever got done under this law because as an autistic person I wanted a friend. I never had any malice. The worse things I’ve ever done is say nasty things and accidentally threaten people in anger (in writing not in person). I made the blog to teach people that not everything is as clear cut as it seems. I was a good innocent person before I got labelled otherwise. I do not have a bad nature. I have only ever retaliated toward how I was treated for being different. It’s probably an appropriate topic for world mental health day. I don’t want things to stay as they are. I don’t care about the neurotypical system which says things must be done a certain way and then left. That doesn’t stop the way things are keeping me awake. I long for proper sleep and the injustice that was never fixed means I end up exhausted and unable to function. Even if I did want to do stuff in life I couldn’t because it’s messed my sleep pattern up so much. We need to start doing the things that just ‘aren’t normally done’ so that traumatised people do not have to live like this. The NT system is not fit for neurodiverse people. The so-called norms have to be open to discussion and a way forward that works for all put into action.