I’ve never felt like a proper person.

This is a really random post and I’m going to have to be quite quick typing tonight’s entry because I can’t sleep much tomorrow because I need to sort out my cats vet visit. I have been through so many things that has invalidated me which has resulted in me not feeling like a proper person. I may physically exist as a being but I don’t have a value. If I do have a superficial value it is way lower than anyone else. That is my role. I never chose the being lower than anyone else but that’s how the outside world treated me. I can no longer see myself as a proper person either. I exist but I am nothing. I have no value because fate has chosen that for me. If I had value and was a proper person I could have had the people I wanted in my life. They would have seen me as something they wanted. That is how things work.