I’m not doing it.

I have woken up (I know it’s really late again but sleep pattern is a mess) knowing exactly what my decision is going to be. I’m not going to be telling the university the details of the lies which I told about A. I won’t do the right thing unless she drops the order. We can then discuss things and I will tell the truth to the university. Why should I cooperate when the other half of the situation is not doing what I have explained I need? I won’t benefit from telling the university that I lied back then whatsoever. I’m not blackmailing here by making this decision. This is what I have to do to get the other side to do what I need after all the time that has passed. I could write to the university telling them the truth but the other person could easily then never remove the order. The truth about the lies are my ammunition in the situation. They are holding onto having the order… but I’m holding onto the truth which I do not have to tell the university if I don’t think it’s in my best interests. If the other half of the situation quits being so damn stubborn and cooperates with me then I made forget that it’s not in my best interests. I’m not a bitch I have simply been burnt too many times and now know how to play those stupid games.