I want to make things right between myself and A but I can’t because she will never like me. It isn’t even about liking me. It’s how she sees me. People keep asking me if they can do anything to help with me being kept awake by stuff and my trauma related to the situation.… Read More I know what I want but I won’t get it. And, there is no way others can help.
I went back to sleep. I woke up extremely tired. I feel like something has zapped my energy. I literally have so much to do so that it looks decent for routine rental inspection tomorrow but I haven’t done it. I don’t know how this works but things from my past. Negative comments are causing… Read More Energy still wiped today.
The neighbours cat strolled in to use the litter tray and have something to eat from their bowls this morning. This caused my cats to growl at him. He keeps strolling in and out the window today. He normally gets bored so he goes off and is nosey somewhere else. I let him do what… Read More Rudely awoken this morning.
After being awake all night… again for the millionth time in weeks. I would just like to express how annoying my reality can be. I am weird. That is just one of those things. I do however have to be weird to cope with certain things. You have absolutely no idea what it is like… Read More This is my life… no one has the right to judge unless they too experience it.
I’m awake again being affected by past trauma and it is driving me mad. I end up in tears. I get frustrated because I want my sleep pattern to be normal again. Unless I knocked myself out with sleeping tablets my brain won’t turn off. The GP no longer gives them out on prescription. I… Read More I’m fed up of trauma keeping me awake.