I can’t deal with this for 6 to 8 weeks.

I just looked up the time it could take for my injuries to heal. Finger injury – 6 to 8 weeks. Leg injury – 6 weeks. I’m on the 3rd week of my hand injury but that is still 4 to 6 weeks left before it is ok to use as normal. I’m only nearly on the second week of my leg injury. I don’t know how I’m going to manage to not be active like I was… even walking made my leg stiff and painful this week. I definitely can’t go the gym because that will screw it up for longer. I did that with my other leg and it became a reoccurring injury for years afterward when I could have just waited to go back to my exercise routine I would have avoided years of a reoccurring painful knee. I literally feel trapped in four walls though. I’m going to be feeling like a caged animal but I would rather have that than have to keep having weeks off due to injury which probably would be more frustrating in the long run. Talking about long term. I have finally come off the antidepressants as my tapering off schedule has now ceased the withdrawal effects. I didn’t think I would ever get the brain zapping to stop. Then there was the restlessness. I hated that withdrawal effect. I will always be frustrated when it comes to the past because whether I’m medicated or not it pisses me off. It is totally natural to be pissed off. Anger etc is a complete natural response to the shit that I went through due to my autism not being understood by the world. I really do want to put the past to bed but others may not allow me to do so. I’m backed into a corner via circumstances which I can’t get out of unless others let me. I have many regrets that I can’t change. I don’t want people to hate me for the mistakes I made which were fuelled by trauma etc. I am a good person and I hope that I can convince people to see that. I fully hold my hands up to being a complete bitch in parts of my past. I don’t think anyone is totally innocent in their life though.

2 responses to “I can’t deal with this for 6 to 8 weeks.”

  1. I can totally relate to this. I moved to Nebraska on June 21st. Exactly one week later, I was playing red light green light with my grandchildren when I slipped. I heard the bones in my leg break. I shattered my tibia and fibula so bad that I had to have surgery to put a rod in my leg with screws in my ankle and just below my knee. I’ve been recovering and cooped up for six weeks now, with a few weeks to go before I can walk without crutches. I hope you feel better soon.


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