I am on my own when it comes to my autism.

I struggle to do many things being autistic. I was barely able to get out of bed today. I was aching from my walk yesterday so it isn’t like I can go for a walk to get out now that plans have changed. The deal is normally if I answer the phone and say I’m coming over for dinner then that is the plan. I didn’t see the next incoming phone call because I was tired and trying to function with an injured finger and aches all over me caused by monthly about to start and long walk yesterday. I can’t clear the mess up around me due to my hand so my environment is getting depressing. I need a carer who understands autism. I need to be structured to succeed in life but I can’t organise things in structure using my own brain because I have a naturally unstructured pattern of thinking.